suno na...

Dil Ne Tum Ko Chun Liya Hai... Tum Bhi Isko Chuno Na!!!
Khwaab Koi Dekhta Hai... Tum Bhi Sapne Buno Na!!!
Dil Ne Tum Ko Chun Liya Hai... Tum Bhi Isko Chuno Na!!!
Khwaab Koi Dekhta Hai... Tum Bhi Sapne Buno Na!!!

Dil Yeh Mera Tumse Kuch Keh Raha Hai... Suno Na!!!
Dil Yeh Mera Tumse Kuch Keh Raha Hai... Suno Na!!!

my best friends' wedding...

this is one of the funny videos we have captured during some joyous moments spent here at our institute... hope you will like it... the voice dominant in this video is mine... watch it, it is funny... hope you will enjoy... adjust the brightness if you feel it is too dark...

sankey tank park alias joggers park...

as part of my weight reduction program, i have started jogging agaain... bangalore weather is getting to its extreme in coldness... sun can be seen nowhere until around 8-9 in the morning... air is completely filled with mist and fog... it is a blissful experience to run upto this so called sankey tank park, which i felt should be renamed as jogger's park since the whole track around the pond in the park is occupied by people who come for their morning walk/jogging... watching so many different kinds of people is a different experience...

to mention a few interesting observations: i could see more number of old people are coming in couples or with their good old friends, whereas, most of the youngsters are coming alone... most of the people, irrespective of their age, looked worried rather than relaxed... majority of girls, who must be working (i guess!!), lack smile on their face... people who are slim are doing their brisk walk with more seriousness than those who really need to do it!!! the variety of people coming here is so varied that one middle aged woman is doing meditation sitting on one side of the pond, and a couple of young girls are smoking cigarettes on the other side... the traffic level is increasing at an exponential rate between 6:30 to 8:00... water in the pond is far better than all other lakes i have seen so far... the mist dancing on the surface of the water is an awsome view...

though the park is located nearly 2km away from our institute, i found it very joyful to jog till that point to make my day more beautiful... the laziness, the fatigue, and the feeling of cold are vanishing within 2 minutes after starting from room... to add to the joy, i found another task into my routine... i am watering the plants in the lawn of my department!!! some said it is weird, but i found lot of satisfaction in that!!! yes, the way i look at these plants has changed... now, i can feel that they are smiling back at me!!! hope i can continue this routine for long...

this is how to capture huuuuuge objects ;-)

photographer: krishnababu
object: kalyan

the diary...

last night, i was feeling terribly bored and alone... started browsing my old diaries, which are neatly arranged from 2003 onwards... not all the pages are filled but, every page that is filled looked important... i went through some of good old memories, which made me laugh, cry, and finally silent...

i found some of the hotel bills that i 've paid during treat given by me to my girl friend for the first time, the movie tickets, and some of the letters... which includes a small slip saying i am an idiot but still lovable!!! the feeling is awsome... i don't really understand why people have really forgotten the beauty of hand-written letters... a mail reaches a computer, but a letter reaches the hands of our loved ones... the difference is large... we can hug a letter or a diary but not a mail or a computer... sometimes, i feel like i am crazy or over-sentimental... everything that i've shared with my loved ones always reminds me those wonderful days... how romantic is the song "kitni baatein yaad aati hai?"...

the diary is a reflection of our transition from the past to present... it never objects to what we write or feel... true sink for the whole bunch of feelings... it is the only thing that reminds us what we did in the past, how we were, and what decisions we have taken... only thing it demands is a little bit of patience and mood to visit it...

most of my diaries are presented by my friends... of course, if nobody presents, i will take them to some bookstore and make them buy for me... every year, i will buy one or two diaries to present to friends... a kind of selfish gift that we can spend... because, it brings your memory to those friends whenever they write their diary... i have already got one from krishna for the coming year... this year's diary is completely filled with mixed emotions... i must say that there is a clear transition in my personality from the start of the year to the date... hopefully, in a positive direction...

hoping that this habbit of writing diary will not die!!!

my new friends...

for the good or bad, i've lost my mobile... and Mahesh, one of my good friends, has gifted me with a new handset... i am almost in love with it... nice look, display, radio, wonderful polyphonic ring tones, and GPRS... what to say? i am happy again with my own mobile in hand after a long time...

another good companion i've found is my 'worldspace' satellite... i am too attached to it that i cannot sleep in the night without switching it on... worldspace network is offering around 40 channels with varying interests... and it's completely commercial free... particularly, i love the channel 'jhankaar' which broadcasts all brand new hindi songs... nonstop... in fact, there is so much to hear on worldspace as its caption says... though the setup costed me an awsome 2500 bucks, i feel it's worth spending on it to enjoy a healthy companionship...

so, finally... i have two new good friends to offer some companionship to get rid of my bloody loneliness...

few kodak moments...

At last, as my bubbly buddy Kalyan brought a digital camera, I have started enjoying the companionship of photography... these two photos are captured by me today, after the convocation at our Institute.

A beautiful view near our Faculty Hall in a pleasant evening...

The journey begins...

for the moment...

Yourself: gopalam
Your partner: amazing (should be ;-)
Your hair: funny
Your Mother: loving
Your Father: caring
Your Favorite Item: mobile
Your dream last night: kiss
Your Favorite Drink: rose milk
Your Dream Car: audi
Your Dream Home: two storied building with balcony, in a hill station
The Room You Are In: lab
Your fear: Loneliness
Where you Want to be in Ten Years: with my wife and kids
Who you hung out with last night: my computer
What You're Not: hypocrat
One of Your Wish List Items: digicam
Time: Dark
The Last Thing You Did: blink
What You Are Wearing: spectacles
Your favorite weather: autumn
Your Favorite Book: love story
Last thing you ate: 5star
Your Life: fantastic
Your mood: oops!
Your Best Friends: loyal
What are you thinking about right now: future
What are you doing at the moment: yawning
Your summer: Over
Relationship status: no way!
What is on your tv: nothing
What is the weather like: cool, calm, and pleasant..
When is the last time you laughed: 1hr back

forgive and forget...

The single most important part of any love story is not the courting period, not the honeymoon phase or the actual relationship itself, but how it all ends. This determines your subsequent relationships and, of course, the rest of your life with questions raised like "Is this a rebound thing?" or "Is it a transitional fling?" or "How can you still love someone when you are not over with the other?"

So, before you get into another relationship: lay the ghosts to rest.

To draw a parallel with death, we bury the dead, have a mourning period, get it all out and then have a closing ceremony of sorts after a few days, and then get on with our lives, remembering the person once in a while, cherishing the good things and forgetting the bad because the bad does not matter any more. Now, that's a clue on what to do for closure in a relationship. First, it does not matter whose fault it was. Forgive and forget. Or if it was your fault, apologise and forget. A post mortem is useful. Separate the good things from the bad things. Think of it as the baggage you have to carry for the rest of your journey. Discard the heavy parts of the baggage you cannot share with your next companion. For which you need to resolve the incomplete questions: why did it happen to me? Or why did I mess it up? Or does moving on mean I didn't truly love him/her?

To resolve these questions, you could meet up with each other, remind him/her about the good things, thank him/her for it, do not bring up the bad and make sure to agree on one thing: That it was good till it lasted.

No bad feelings

Remember, this is the funeral. No bad feelings. And now it is time to move on. Agree to be friends who will smile at each other when you do bump in to each other. If the person has caused you so much hurt that you cannot possibly meet them face-to-face, email your feelings to them. Get it out of your system. But make sure you find three good things to say before you think of one bad thing.

Forgive. Unconditionally. Because, it does not matter whose fault it was. Death is death, heart attack or kidney failure or murder or suicide does not matter. The fact is you have to live without the other. You might meet each other someday and the ghosts would come back if not exorcised.

So perform the final rites. Delete the messages that weigh you down and remind you about the great tragedy. Take the gifts out of the cupboard and keep them out with your other stuff. And do this slowly and steadily, take your time. There is a good enough reason why there's a feast at the end of 13 days after a funeral.

After which, date people with an open mind. Not that you simply have to. Meeting new people just adds a new dimension to your life.

Forget the scars of the previous relationship. If you do keep talking about the scars, you stand a good chance to scratch them or open them up while discussing them. No person you date will appreciate you talking so much about the previous relationship. It could either ruin your current relationship or worse, make your date support the other and argue with you on who was right and who was wrong.

Forgetting is possible only if you forgive. Unconditionally. Just like the key to a relationship lies in giving. Unconditionally.

PS:this article is taken from yesterday's metro plus of hindu.

तनहाई...

तनहाई, तनहाई
दिल के रास्ते में कैसी ठोकर मैने खाई
टूटे ख्वाब सारे एक मायूसी हैं छाई
हर खुशी सो गई, जिंदगी खो गई
तुम को जो प्यार किया, मैने तो सजा में पाई
तनहाई, तनहाई, मिलों हैं फैली हुई तनहाई

ख्वाब में देखा था एक आंचल मैने अपने हाथों में
अब टूटें सपनों के शीशे चुभते हैं इन आखों में
कल कोई था यही,  अब कोई भी नहीं
बन के नागिन जैसे हैं सांसों में लहराई
तनहाई, तनहाई, पलकों पे कितने आंसू हैं लाई

क्यों ऐसी उम्मीद की मैने जो ऐसे नाकाम हुई
दूर बनाई थी मंजिल तो रस्ते में ही शाम हुई
अब कहा जाऊँ मैं, किसको समझाऊँ मैं
क्या मैने चाहा था और क्यों किस्मत में आई

तनहाई, तनहाई, जैसे अंधेरों की हो गहराई

my first police complaint!!!

I have never been to a police station before... Yesterday, I went for the first time to register a complaint about loss of my mobile... We went there not with a hope of tracing my mobile but just to get acknoeledgement receipt so that i can get the same number from AIRTEL people...

It was a painful experience, I must say... I went along with kalyan who happened to be omniscient regarding whereabout's and howabout's... We have chosen Yeshwantapura police station as it is next to our institute... As soon as we entered the police station, the very sight is unfriendly and people there in khakhi dress look like 'yama dootha's... The SI over there handed me over a feeble piece of paper to write down the complaint... when i wrote subject as 'theft of mobile', he has immediately taken that paper and torn it out, while giving a look as if he is looking at some uncivilized people... then, he started questioning like 'who are you?', 'where do you reside?', etc... when we told that we are residing in indian institute of science, he was inquiring about which part of IISc are we staying? regardless of the answers given by us, he says our insti. doesn't come under their police station range... later, he wanted me to draw the road map to my place from the police station... meanwhile, he ignores us and counts the money(unofficial) he has earned that day... then, he went to Inspector and explained the situation... Inspector too has asked all the same questions and gave similar conclusions... finally, when i have shown my ID card, (i don't know what changed his mind... whether he thought that he should not collect any amount from us or felt sympathy for poor educated souls), he has given me another feeble piece of paper and asked me to write 'loss of mobile' rather than 'theft of mobile'...

finally, he has given us the acknowledgement(which is obviously another feeble piece of paper) and my job done (may god bless this SI)... but, what really pained me is the way they treated us... if this is how they are treating people who are sufficiently educated, what might be the situation with innocent, ignorant, and poor people? I cannot imagine... It seems it is highly futile exercise to seek help from police station unless there is no other way!!!

a tribute to my mobile!

After a long companionship with my mobile phone, i lost it yesterday when i forgot it in lab... I have searched it everywhere i can, and asked everyone around... But, it is lost... Though the worth of the piece in terms of rupees is not more than a sum of two thousand rupees, it was a precious item in my life... It brought so many good friends into life... Used to wake me up in time... It brought smile on my face... Most of the times, I used to keep it next to me when I sleep or just lie on the bed and waiting for a call from dear ones... Though many new models have come with attractive features and affordable prices, I couldn't discard this one because of the intimacy I had with it... Most importantly, this is one big item I've bought with my own money for the first time... The joy I had when I talked through this for the first time is ineffable... It had become almost an integral part of my body, keeping me happy, healthier, and connected with my loved ones... I cannot imagine myself without a mobile in hand... But, fact is fact... It was lost... Goodbye my dear friend!!!

GREat experience!

The much awaited test has come and gone... and i came up with a decent score of 1360... though the result is not so great, i am left with a good feel and a GREat experience... I can say that the understanding of any reading, be it technical, general, sports or something else, will be greatly improved after preparing honestly for GRE and having had a good companionship with words and their contextual meaning for around a couple of months... It was really a great experience!!!

Some tricks and tips...

1. Do all word lists at least once. Remember to revise every word-list cumulatively as you progress!

2. Make sure that you are able to recollect all the high-frequency words at a glance. Check this only after you are gone through all the word lists with full care.

3. Don't practice any exercise until you are done with all the word lists. But, once you finish all word lists, do as many as you can. Leave at least 4 complete days for mock tests practice.

4. Do pay as much attention to Reading comprehension as possible. Most of your time will be spent on this part of the verbal section only.

5. Spend good amount of time on the first 5-7 questions in the test as they will decide the following questions.

6. Change your mode of preparation often. Book, word-games, exercises, flash cards, and some good web-sites (block-reading.com, number2.com, guru's word list etc.) can give you a perfect blend of preparation methods.

7. Finally, dont overlook the quant section. We often forget simple formulae like Median, Standard Deviation etc. Remember, this is the section where we can score full with mimimum effort. So, it is worth to recollecting all those fundamental simple formulae.

8. Even if you don't get the score you targeted, don't worry... you are left with a good pool of vocabulary. All the best!!

The quarter-life crisis

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may or may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.

You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.

You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while wining the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

PS: Author is unknown, I got this through one of my best friends! And, it really touched me.

life is beautiful...

nothing special or interesting to write about... my meddling with word lists is still going on... enjoying the comfortable stay at home... but, sleeplessness is increasing day by day... whenever i sleep, words are flooding into mind... in spite of the doubtful success in the exam, preparation is giving me a flavor of english vocabulary...

as uaual, i couldn't sleep last night... after hours of futile attempts to sleep, rolling this side and that side, woke up at 4 in the morning... prepared a tea, elachi added in it, and enjoyed it along with the cool breeze coming from the window as it was raining all the night... i had an advantage of my sleepless night... could fondly recollect some of the sweet memories with my parted friends... could listen to the wonderful devotional songs by my neighboring family... i wish i get such a melodious classical singer as my wife!!!

drizzling is stopped by 6AM... could catch some beautiful scenes out in the garden... i found some of the rain drops still hanging on the flower petals and shining in the growing lighting of the dawn... last night's jasmine flowers are still fresh due to the night long drizzle... i wish i had a digital camera!!! it needs a little bit of interest and patience to find beauty in the same old ordinary surroundings, i guess!!! believe me, the glimpses of those drenched flowers really charged my day... so, friends... whenever you don't get sleep, just dont try to sleep... come out of the room... try out different things available... poetry, scenery, songs... whatever you can!!!

life is beautiful... if we have the eyes to look at it so!!!

happy diwali

the festival of lights and victory was very good this year... after around five years, i celebrated this festival at home with my parents and nephew... it is somewhat good to see that people are preferring crackers which give colors and sparkles rather than those that give sounds... may the joy and brightness brought by this festival persist throughout the year and forever!!! happy diwali to one and all...

so far so good...

GRE preparation is going good... i am meddling with wordlists in my own way... no matter how many times word lists are revised some words always confuse me... like fictititious, fictious, factious, factitious, filch, flilch, etc... still, GRE preparation has its own charm and beauty in it... trying to bring back the good old habbit of mugging, mugging and mugging...

having fun with my nephew... it is always fun to play with him who makes all sorts of sounds to convey others what he wanted... his smile is soooooo cute... even i learnt how to manage him... pretty good lesson for me it seems... so far everything is going good... will be back soon with some good stuff than just boring routine things of life!!!

hurray... i got leave!!!

hurray... i got leave for almost a full month... no work till 8th november...
hulalla lalalla laallaalley...

waiting for 'someone'

dussarah has gone with a long weekend... month has changed... same with the weather... slow swift from clear sky to cloudy... it's awsome to look at this october sky which is partly cloudy and partly bright... the half moon visible in the evening is soooo charming... and so are my thoughts!!! from a state of turbulence, slowly getting into clear zone... the constantly nagging questions like 'what do i want in life?', 'what do i really like to do?', 'what is my destiny?' are still not completely answered... but still, slowly getting accustomed to the fact that life has its charm and beauty in making you ponder about 'what next?'... trying to find joy in every small thing... listening to kenny G's 'joy of life', sankar mahadevan's breathless, suprabhatham by MS, reading at least one short story everyday, sunset, afternoon drizzle, and the bright moon in the sky etc... these things are keeping me healthy and happier... in other words, moon light days have arrived!!!

one more interesting thing... now, i am believing the saying 'someone somewhere is made for you', as is said in 'dil to pagal hai'... but, how can we come to know that 'someone'??? hopefully, we should not bother about this question, i feel... when time comes, something deep in your heart, the bell rings!!! i am waiting for that someone!!!

well, here is a question for you folks... in fact, a doubt which myself wanted to know since long!!! what's the best way to identify your soulmate? is there anything really solid importance this word 'soulmate'? if you could identify that person, what is the best way to approach and make things work out?

ideality versus reality...

many times, i use to prepare a strict and disciplined timetable for the day and always (mind you... it is not sometimes... always) fail to execute it at least half through it... here is how it goes ... just for fun!!!

Time		scheduled plan		Reality
6:00		wake up and go for jogging		alarm is buzzing… (but no use!!)
6:00 - 7:00		physical exercises		alarm is kept in snooze.. (Still sleeping)
7:00 - 7:30		breakfast and newspaper		the hell with alarm… (it is already thrown into the corner of the room)
7:30 - 9:00		sit with books and start to work place		finally got up at 9… (god!!! Why did u give very less time to sleep?)
9:00 - 10:30		seriously work.. Don’t waste time…		breakfast, check mails, orkut etc.. (let boss not notice me)
10:30 - 11:00		coffee break..		coffee break.. (only this is done as per schedule!!!)
11:00 - 12:30		back to work and discuss with boss		continue to orkut, blogging etc.. (boss was in some meeting!!)
12:30 - 01:30		lunch break		unwillingly leaves orkut etc. and head towards mess!!
1:30 - 3:30		another work session..		back from lunch at 2:30.. (And straight to tea board)
3:30 - 4:30		discussion with boss…		finally think for a while about pending work.. (a deep sigh!!)
4:30 - 5:00		snacks		still repenting for not working!! (just repenting, not doing work ;-)
5:00 - 6:30		library, gym and other physical activities..		endless chat with frens.. (about movies, girls, styles…)
6:30 - 7:00		refreshing and start to mess..		tea at gymcafe.. (chat is continued)
7:00 - 7:30		dinner and some fine time with friends		oh god… I have to take bath again?? (skips bath)
7:30 - 9:00		listening music.. And some useful stuff..		yeah… finally done with dinner.. (what to do next??)
9:00 - 10:30		another work session..		still not decided… (but wanted to something different..)
10:30 - 11:00		tea at tea board.. It's awsome..		no need to say… already at tea board.. (discussing about some movie)
11:00 - 12:00		finalisation of the day's work.. And back to room		browsing for online movies and finally caught a poor one to go with!!
12:30 - 12:30		write diary while listening to songs		who will write diary… poor sentimentalists!!! (still with the movie..)
12:30 - 6:00		sleep healthily..		returns to room late.. Try hard to get sleep… finally to bed at 2 or 3AM

pictures of water drops...

having nothing to do today, i have collected some of the beautiful pictures taken on water drops at different sizes, backgrounds, and locations... hope you will like this collection... and thanks for the owner of the photos who put these on web to copy ;-)

lonely night...

Last night, i was feeling sleepless... went to corridor and was watching the fountain... the hostel lights reflected in the puddle are amazing... sky was beautifully clear and stars were shining... came out of my room and sat near the fountain... the waves in the puddle were dancing as if they want to bring my sweet and deep memories to the surface... some of the rooms are still lightened, indicating beauty of labor and wisdom... the cool breeze of the silent night surrounded me... it was thrilling, as if i am with my loved one... a nightingale was singing from its heart... i sat there for a long time... very long time... slowly all the remaining rooms became dark... i was alone... alone in that long night... dreaming of something abstract... dreaming with my eyes wide open... a lonely cloud was passing... it was visible for few minutes and slowly disappeared... it came as if to watch out what i was doing... and it passed... i was left alone again... i lied myself on the fountain wall and was watching into the sky, trying hard to find something... something very important... something very beautiful... something which can make my life meaningful... god!!! direct me, please!!!

confused!!!

nothing is so exciting these days for me... i dont know what happened to me but everything is looking monotonous and boring... the september morning sky is so beautiful and wonderful... still, i am unable to enjoy its beauty... the untimely drizzle is so romantic... yet, i am not able to appreciate its cool touch... the sunset view from my balcony is really awsome... but, i am not in a position to relish it... what happened to me??? as of now, i don't have any answer... i am so confused!!! god knows how far and how long this confusion continues!!!

another memorable trip...

Recently, our department has organized another picnic... this time, we went to Mekadatu, a beautiful place which is around 90km away from Bangalore... had lot of fun there with friends and some of our professors... the stroll on the river banks is unforgettable... we had so many funny moments and enjoyed the nature's beauty for a full day!!! here, are few snaps taken there...

silver jubilee!!!

birthday is a special occasion which reminds us that our life span is decreasing and responsibilities are increasing... a time to recollect the past, evaluate the present, and head towards the future with fresh energy!!!

I have successfully completed my 25th year and celebrating the silver jubilee of my life... last night, i had good fun with my friends... cake cutting, some snaps, decoration of my face with cake cream, some stuff to fill the stomach, and not to forget... the bumpppsss!!! on the whole, it's a beautiful day!!!

lage raho gopal bhai!!!

life is going quite smooth... not so boring, not so exciting... having fun with english words... of course, it is always troublesome job to remember scores of words in a short time... but, still GRE preparation has its own beauty...

i have seen two good movies these days... one is in telugu namely 'bommarillu' which means a toy house... though the comedy track is quite routine as seen in recent movies, the centre theme of the movie is quite well focused... the struggle between a son who has his own ambitions and dreams and his father who always tries to give his children the best... it's worth watching for both parents and children to identify themselves and get some insight into the relationship.

the second one is 'lage raho munnabhai'... the director used the brand name 'munnabhai' as the backbone for the movie, though it bears no resemblence with its previous part... the meeting of munnabhai with gandhiji is awsome and interesting... hopefully, we can expect that this informal way of spreading 'gandhigiri' can bring some change in our confined mindset!!!

in addition to these, weather in bangalore is too good these days... since these are full moon days, the night sky is really beautiful... enjoying the moonlight along with friends and dreaming about future... lage raho gopal bhai!!!

love meets confusion meets the disaster...

recently, one of my friend's close friend has committed suicide. it was really a sad news. though it is common these days to hear that somebody has committed here or there, i feel it strongly appropriate to write a few lines about the incident.

the story goes like this... this boy is in love with his classmate since long time. the pair always say that they cannot live without each other. they proved that they are made for each other. they got married in the first year of graduation without disclosing it to their parents. girl belongs to some upper caste and boy to a backward. it is now one year after they have finished their graduation and started living with their parents. boy used to tell everything to his mother who used to be his best friend always. the problem started a few months back when the girl's parents started looking for some match for her. she couldn't convey them properly that she cannot live without the boy and that she has got married already. but, somehow, her parents sensed that something is wrong. as usual, in a cinematic fashion, they started black mailing her. her agile mind accepted their order in a confused state and got engaged with the boy(bridegroom) brought by parents. and stopped talking with her loved one. the boy somehow knew the news and approached the girl and tried his level best to convince her. he even talked to the bridegroom. but no use!!! the girl said that she dont know this boy and bridegroom said he wont object if she is willing to go with the boy. imagine the situation of this boy!!! and think of the girl's state of depressed and given up mind!!! few days after that incident, the girl has committed suicide. hearing this, the boy couldn't wait and he followed the girl's path.

the question comes here!! once we die, there is no question of how we are or whom we like or how we wanted to live... but, what happens to others who are so closely related to the died? what is the situation of the parents? how depressing it is for the friends? isn't there any solution for this? why dont people realise that there are so many good things than just love? why parents dont understand their children's feelings? the real beauty of life can be seen only through gaining experience through failures and getting mentally strong everyday... oh god! please give us the courage to face the reality!!!

happy independence day!!!

we have successfully completed 59 years of independence and celebrating 60th independence day... i must confess that i missed flag hoisting this time too... i am not quite sure whether my doubt is valid or not, but, it always troubles me... are we really enjoying the freedom? if the answer is yes, are we doing justice to our responsibilities?

on an auspicious day like this... a day meant to celebrate freedom... we are scared to go outside... almost half of the shops and eating outlets are closed in the city... more than half of the services which are available on ordinary days are not available today!!! may be, this is a strange way to celebrate freedom?? i dont know... i am sorry if i am hurting anybody's feelings... rather, i am trying to put my views here!!!

coming to the next part of the question... are we doing minimum justice to our responsibilities? how many of us are utilising the right to vote? how many of us are maintaining civic sense while eating in public places like parks, road sides etc? how many of us are really happy about being in this country?

inspite of all these questions, it is indeed a happy independence day as we didnt encounter any disastrous incident this time!!!

celebrating friendship!!!

it's a little late that i am writing about friendship here... already one week after 'friendship day' this year!!! i strongly feel that there can't be a unique definition for this wonderful relation... some say it's the rainbow between two hearts... others say it's a beautiful garden where people can break their barriers and share anything and everything!!! as a matter of fact, all these definitions, in one way or the other, tell about the beauty of friendship...

i too have received some messages containing beautiful quotes about friendship and also saying one is soo lucky to have me as friend... but, i wonder whether do we really have that honesty or sincerity in this relationship? is friendship all about sending beautiful messages (which are absolutely free!!!) without really meaning them?? right from the school days, we share our feelings and things with somebody... and that somebody keeps changing with time depending upon circumstances... as days progress, we slowly forget where the old friends are!!! in fact, we often scratch our head to recollect some of their names too!!!

i feel the real beauty of friendship (in fact, any relationship) lies in how comfortable and honest we are in understanding each other... it's more beautiful when there is interdependence rather than dependence or independence on each other... it's brightened when you surprise your friend by solving his/her problem without their knowledge... it's enriched when we offer a friendly shoulder to support when they are in pain... it's highlighted when we rediscover ourselves in presence of the other person... it's celebrated when we forget our ego and and identify the alter-ego in that friend!!!

friendship is not a matter of one day... it's forever... let's celebrate it with our good friends all the time!!!

it's beautiful day!!!

after so many weeks of frustration, things got clear today... it is like a clear blue sky after long lasted clouds are cleared... i dont know whether the way they are cleared are right or not... but, they are cleared... a kind of euphoria has been filled in my heart... now, i am back to the normal state, in fact to an elated state, and enjoying the beauty of life all again...

the breeze of wind is so smooth...
moon in the sky is so bright and romantic...
the lingering thoughts in my mind are so beautiful...
and the hopes for the future are so optimistic...

bridging the communication gap...

communication gap!!! one of the most uneasy phase in any relationship... sometimes, even in a relation which was thought to be having an ideal match of wave-length, it so happens that the feelings are not conveyed properly to the other party... in fact, sometimes, they are conveyed exactly in the opposite sense... the reasons may be so many!!! each thinks in his/her own way and comes to some kind of conclusion which may not be right... there could be a phase difference in the thoughts of both... the gap slowly accumulates and reaches a point where the two are at so long distance to each other and life looks just like a trash bin!!!

is there any solution for this problem? certainly, yes!!! either we should extend a friendly hand or be ready to accept the same from the other... things can be sorted out by discussing with a cool and open mind... of course, there is a problem of ego everywhere... sometimes, losing ego can be so embarrassing... but, at the end of the day, the happiness of being together is so beautiful and pleasant... so, why this gap? let's lose our ego and bridge the gap to build a colourful and healthy relationship!!!

someone like you...

there are few things sadder in this life than watching somebody walk away from you after they have left you; watching the distance between your bodies expand until nothing is left except the empty space and silence.

This is a dialogue by Jane, a character from the movie 'someone like you', when her loved partner leaves her and walks away. I dont know exactly why i remembered these lines but sometimes i feel these lines are nothing but true. I wonder how can anybody break the promise made to their partner and choose their own path. Dont they retrospect their behavior and respect the relation at all? What happens to the one who was left behind? What happens to the colourful and happiest world imagined between the so called 'soulmates'?

Certainly, the phrase "nothing lasts forever" proves its existence and irony everywhere. Time heals the wound, but not completely. One can take some time for coming out of the phase of self-pity, and build from the zero based state, and ultimately to a comfort zone. There may be so many good (in fact better) friends in that zone. But, somewhere somehow, when the sky is so clear and pleasant, the breeze is so cool, the memories of the broken relation just rush in. A painful pleasure or a pleasant pain, whatever it may be, will make one confused. The trauma prevails for a while, and fades away in the day-to-day hectic life! The cycle repeats!! After all, pain is a part of life which nobody can escape!!!

Isn't the ultimate bliss to find Someone exactly like you??

exactly one year...

hurray... it is already one year after i entered iisc... 27th july 2005, one of the memorable days for me... the first feeling i got after entering this institute is a big 'wow'... so many interactions, so many new lessons, so many shocks, ups and downs and so on... this place is always been a confusion for me... sometimes, i feel it's just heaven... and the next moment, i feel exactly the opposite... but still, i feel very much fortunate to be here to enjoy the beauty of nature at its best clubbed with the beauty of labour... hoping to get many more pleasant and surprising encounters in the coming year!!!

hazaaron khwaishein aisi...

Last night, i watched the movie 'hazaaron khwaishein aisi'... It was a really touching, sensible, and emotional movie... The way the relations are focussed is excellent... i dont know whether somebody can love a girl that much... but, it was a nice feeling after watching the movie...

here, i am writing the lyrics (english version) of one of the songs...

The silly heart is setting off to see a dream...
The heart has words sillier than itself...
The heart beats are sillier and so are the thoughts...
So, why do you shy away for the silly movements in the sleep?
The silly eyes wish for happy moments and to see the beautiful nature...
The silly heart is setting off to see a dream...

There should be some silly mate in this silly world...
And, it should be just your hand in the hand in this smart rush...
The tune should be something silly; and similar should be the rhythm...
The silly leg will then long for a silly beat to dance...
The silly heart is setting off to see a dream...

The darkness should be silly and similar should be the tranquility...
The sound-wave should be soft; and the magic should be likewise...
There is a silly moment that gradually spells out the time...
It teaches the silly face to live with the times...
The silly heart is setting off to see a dream...